Today is one of those days when I struggle to remind myself why we moved away from our family and friends. I think it's probably because my family is all gathering for Christmas parties and cookie exchanges and we're not there to join the fun. I miss watching the Grandkids open their gifts and miss the smells of dinner preparations. I miss hearing the guys yelling at the missed plays on TV football games and seeing friends that we don't often see during the rest of the year.
BUT, and this is where I give myself a reality check. They're all stressed to the max trying to get everything done; they're madly cleaning house and putting out holiday silver and dishes; they're making sure they have enough chairs and tables for everyone. They're balancing their checkbooks, making sure they aren't overspending and worrying they'll forget someone. They're groaning at having to attend another work party with people they wouldn't necessarily associate with outside the workplace.
So, although I miss them terribly and could cry easily today, the rational part of me knows that I don't really want to be in the middle of the chaos. Working full time while trying to get everything done in time for Christmas wasn't fun, especially the last few years. I was tired all the time and couldn't wait for the time when I was living in sunny AZ and not having to do all that work. My shopping was done early and packages were shipped. I'm working on my new favorite piece of jewelry instead of worrying if I have enough plates for Christmas dinner. So the adjustment continues...
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